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Taking my life back
Am sorry in advance for what will probably end up a long post. 
Think I am writing this more for myself than anything else. About 7 years ago, I lost 50 pounds on atkins. I was 41 and for the first time in my life I felt good about me, how I looked, how I felt, all of it. Then a couple of years later I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Complete shock, no indicators, no family history.
I remember when they told me chemo was in my future, I said "OK, I have a few stubborn pounds to loose anyway" The response was not to count on it, that steroids and other meds could cause weight gain. Oh well, I thought, no biggie, tough it out. I wasn't prepared for what it put me thru, physically or mentally. I had a great support system in my family but in the end I let myself down.
After the surgery, the treatments, the hair loss in the end the thing that thru me into depression was finding myself in menopause at the ripe old age of 43. Hot flashes, aches and pains, and for added fun my hair came back in all grey, and 30 pounds heavier. I felt as if I woke up one day and was old. Overnight. I gave up.
The next year i gained another 20, back to pre-atkins weight. So here I am, I made a couple of half hearted attempts to get back on the Atkins train. I will succeed this time. I will lose it slower most likely, thats ok. I'm not going to weigh myself for a while, for me, I want to just feel good, (no carb induced afternoon comas). Losing weight will come in its own time. For right now, I dont want to put myself in a position to be discouraged because I am not losing as fast as I did the first time.
I am back.
Think I am writing this more for myself than anything else. About 7 years ago, I lost 50 pounds on atkins. I was 41 and for the first time in my life I felt good about me, how I looked, how I felt, all of it. Then a couple of years later I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Complete shock, no indicators, no family history. I remember when they told me chemo was in my future, I said "OK, I have a few stubborn pounds to loose anyway" The response was not to count on it, that steroids and other meds could cause weight gain. Oh well, I thought, no biggie, tough it out. I wasn't prepared for what it put me thru, physically or mentally. I had a great support system in my family but in the end I let myself down.
After the surgery, the treatments, the hair loss in the end the thing that thru me into depression was finding myself in menopause at the ripe old age of 43. Hot flashes, aches and pains, and for added fun my hair came back in all grey, and 30 pounds heavier. I felt as if I woke up one day and was old. Overnight. I gave up.
The next year i gained another 20, back to pre-atkins weight. So here I am, I made a couple of half hearted attempts to get back on the Atkins train. I will succeed this time. I will lose it slower most likely, thats ok. I'm not going to weigh myself for a while, for me, I want to just feel good, (no carb induced afternoon comas). Losing weight will come in its own time. For right now, I dont want to put myself in a position to be discouraged because I am not losing as fast as I did the first time.
I am back.
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