I was just wondering if any of you experience this as well as me, I am sure that you do and others are out there that do it's rather frusturating to me. I ahve been having Problems lately ya me, I have been struggling, not with eating not with anything but, Myself, I am unsure as to why this is happening now or why I feel this way but, can only come to the conclusion that I am getting close to goal and now I am trying to sabotage myself. What's in our heads that makes us think we are just not worth the effort. I am having a Huge issue right now. I feel GROSS like the girl who used to be 285 pound. Sure I ahve more bounce to my step sure I look better but inside it's not enough. I feel more like this confident person inside but, lately it's been falling over and I really need tome help to pick her back up. What better place to come then here you are all wonderful amazing people and ya even me, ya think oh, ya she has it all figured out and I don't I struggle every single day I am struggling right now to be able to look in the mirror and accept who I see. I want to look with confidence I want to stand tall. I am sooo PROUD of MYSLEF there is no question just this little part that keep rearing it's ugly head trying to fauler my efforts.
I'll tell you what I'll do today to get through this.
I will SMILE I will Open my eyes to what I have achived looking back at my pictures.
I will get on my treadmill and run just to prove to myself that I am doing it.
I will look to my Friends on ADBB for support rather then fall down with the thought of being back to where I was.
Most of all I will Tell myself How Much I LOVE me then I will remeber how much I am worth it, how much I am worth every effort I put forth. I am worth every pair of new pants and all the things I thought could never be possible.
Most of All I will Say this to Myself I BElIEVE in MYSELF!!
Thanks you all for letting me rant I needed to get that off my chest.
Sarah
I'll tell you what I'll do today to get through this.
I will SMILE I will Open my eyes to what I have achived looking back at my pictures.
I will get on my treadmill and run just to prove to myself that I am doing it.
I will look to my Friends on ADBB for support rather then fall down with the thought of being back to where I was.
Most of all I will Tell myself How Much I LOVE me then I will remeber how much I am worth it, how much I am worth every effort I put forth. I am worth every pair of new pants and all the things I thought could never be possible.
Most of All I will Say this to Myself I BElIEVE in MYSELF!!
Thanks you all for letting me rant I needed to get that off my chest.
Sarah

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