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Have any of you ever had a dream (I consider it a nightmare) of breaking your diet/going off this WOE?
I have had this phenomena occur before - but never so early in my diet. I am now on day 9 of a clean induction after 4 years of struggling
and I have been so greatful for the "moment of clarity" that brought me to doing this WOL strictly by the book. I don't think I would cheat right now or skip a day of exercising if my life depended on it, I feel that strongly committed.
And yet, last night I had a dream (nightmare) that I went to well known ice-cream franchise with a friend. My friend ordered a hot fudge sundae. I have pretty good will power these days - like I said, I feel very committed. But my "dream-self" was overcome with cravings like I have never experienced before. I wanted ice-cream. I wanted hot fudge. And NOTHING was going to stand in my way.
My "dream friend" even tried to tell me not to do it. I vauguely remembered that I was "on some diet" but I didn't care. I ordered a hot fudge sundae, telling the person behind the counter to go heavy on the hot fudge. I brought my mound of sugary end-game to the table (I swear, in retrospect, it wasn't even appetizing) and I started shovelling it in my mouth.
Thats when I woke up - movie style. Sitting straight up in my bed, and looking desperately around me to push away the sundae. I was so upset with myself. And slowly but surely, I realized...there's no sundae, there's no reason to be upset.
But best of all, there were NO cravings. EVERYTHING, even the craving, had all been a complete fabrication of the mind. I am on day 9 of a clean induction! My subconcious can play all the games it wants - my concious mind is in charge now!
I have had this phenomena occur before - but never so early in my diet. I am now on day 9 of a clean induction after 4 years of struggling
and I have been so greatful for the "moment of clarity" that brought me to doing this WOL strictly by the book. I don't think I would cheat right now or skip a day of exercising if my life depended on it, I feel that strongly committed. And yet, last night I had a dream (nightmare) that I went to well known ice-cream franchise with a friend. My friend ordered a hot fudge sundae. I have pretty good will power these days - like I said, I feel very committed. But my "dream-self" was overcome with cravings like I have never experienced before. I wanted ice-cream. I wanted hot fudge. And NOTHING was going to stand in my way.
My "dream friend" even tried to tell me not to do it. I vauguely remembered that I was "on some diet" but I didn't care. I ordered a hot fudge sundae, telling the person behind the counter to go heavy on the hot fudge. I brought my mound of sugary end-game to the table (I swear, in retrospect, it wasn't even appetizing) and I started shovelling it in my mouth.
Thats when I woke up - movie style. Sitting straight up in my bed, and looking desperately around me to push away the sundae. I was so upset with myself. And slowly but surely, I realized...there's no sundae, there's no reason to be upset.
But best of all, there were NO cravings. EVERYTHING, even the craving, had all been a complete fabrication of the mind. I am on day 9 of a clean induction! My subconcious can play all the games it wants - my concious mind is in charge now!
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