Confessions of a Loser

[angelstar]

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I totally agree.

Sometimes I think - God, how shallow am I, I'm moaning that I cant eat bread and yet other people have more serious things to deal with than that.
I guess a good thing is that weight is my only issue. I happy with everything else, my career, my relationships with my family and BF, my finances.

PM-ing you now!!

Sweetie - when I read your words I did a double-take because I thought I had written them! We are two women with the same thoughts.

"I’m addicted to cr*p that isn’t good for me. I cant stand it when someone in front of me is eating something that I’m not allowed to have."

"I get angry when someone eats chips/rice/pasta in front of me. I don’t think of the positive things – I’m being healthier and I’m losing weight. I just think – you skinny cow, you can eat whatever you like and not gain a single pound, why do I have to be the fat one."

Yes, my dear, I think all those things too. I found that by expressing this anger, shouting it if necessary, I felt better.

I have found that I have had to submit, admit, accept, that I am NOT the same as other people. I am made differently and I cannot eat the rubbish that everyone else eats and "get away with it". Nor can you. Yeah that is really sh*tty but that's the truth - life ain't fair babes.

I was in the swimming pool the other day chatting to a woman of about 35 with a perfect face and perfect figure. Turned out she has incurable multiple sclerosis and has lost her lucrative career and scrapes by on benefits. Now her whole life 24/7 consists of just coping with the illness, which is slowly getting worse.

As I watched her leave the pool, inching along the walkway on her two sticks, I realised how damned lucky I am that my only problem is 200 pounds excess weight. All I have to do is stick to Atkins and I will lose weight; but no matter what dietary restrictions that lady follows, she will never get better. Puts it all into perspective. I haven't cheated once since I met her.

Get back on the wagon, accept that life is a b*tch and join me in my long, hard journey. I'm in the UK, too, and my special email buddy has just decided to switch to Weightwatchers so you can be my daily email friend if you want. PM me and swap email addresses, and let's be angry together!

Helena - in Hastings

[angelstar]

Re: Confessions of a Loser

MY UPDATE:

Well ...here we go! Day 1 of Re-Start.

Weighed myself this morning and 12 stone 6/174lbs. A gain of 13lbs. I kinda guessed I'd put on nearly a stone. Not too bad, I should be able to shift 10lbs of it in 2 weeks. Fingers crossed. Going off to post my shameful gain in the Tuesday Weigh In's post!

Thanks for everyone's posts. This is why I love this place, everyone is just so amazing and supportive. Thank you xxx

[Lyssie]

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It's only 'cause your boybriefs look mad comfy and I hadn't seen your siggie for a while?? Then I went to American Eagle and stocked up so now I won't be so jealous.

Aww you were thinking of me?

[angelstar]

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Boy briefs, you mean my knickers?! Hehe

[Atkid]

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Glad to see you back Angel, you will be able to knock that 13 lbs. out in no time with commitment!

[Lyssie]

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Boy briefs, you mean my knickers?! Hehe

It sounds so dirty when you say it like that... Besides, you posting those pics made me take pics in a bikini... not that I have the guts to be posting online, or even taking off my camera for the time being, but they still exist!!

[sallyseachange]

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Good to see you back! That you are back is way the most important thing! Glad you had a great holiday! But...

...now's the time to put the binges behind you and get back on track. I'm absolutely sure you can do it. Look to the future... and think slinky! You'll get there!

[angelstar]

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Hehe...knickers...sometimes I say panties.

It will be ur decision as to whether you will post them but you have lost so much, I think you should!!

It sounds so dirty when you say it like that... Besides, you posting those pics made me take pics in a bikini... not that I have the guts to be posting online, or even taking off my camera for the time being, but they still exist!!