Profound Outburst from HeidiE ....ready?

[Lulubell]

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My husband and I are doing this together and today at church (we are Catholic) after we receved communion we both kind of freaked out and were waiting for some horrible thing to happen to our bodies.

LOL!!! Don't forget - it's transubstantiation! No calories whatsoever!!! seriously, i'm sure it's a negligable amount of carbs. I NEVER drink the communal wine, under any circumstances. I wonder if I should confess it... I'm a germ phobe, you know. Thanks for the post - that made me laugh!

I was eating spoonfuls of dough.

oh lord... this one resonates with me. you know, the only time i bake cookies is at xmas time, and i generally start thanksgiving weekend. i make somewhere over 1000 cookies, at least 8 different varieties and of course, multiple bathches of each. i give them away in tins to co-workers and bring them to parties, etc. also, people actually ask me if they can buy trays from me, since they are so beautiful and colorful and really look better than most bakery cookie trays.

anyway, raw dough is a trigger and a compulsion for me. i can eat so much of it that i actually get sick. yes, nausea and diarreah (probably a slight touch of salmonella from the raw egg). in fact, this past xmas, i did it twice! first with choc. chip cookies and then with the almond spritz. i find it impossible to stop myself when it's happening. it't only until i start to feel ill in the stomach that i stop.

[sweetgirl2]

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wonderfully great post HeidiE thanks ever so much

[BigRunner]

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This post should be a must read for anyone thinking about putting something with sugar/flour in it in their mouth.

Great post.

Rich

[swimr4]

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lulu: My theory on the communal wine and even shaking hands with the guy who has been coughing and sneezing all through mass....you are in God's house and He won't let you get sick...bad manners and all that. I just try not to actually LOOK at the people who go before me.....yikes.......

[dotsamantha]

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F-ing awesome post Heidi. i can shove quite a lot of crap in my mouth, and it comes down to #1- not repeating toxic habits, and #2- not beating myself up about it and moving the heck on.

[julirama723]

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Swimr4--God must hate me then, because I got sick EVERY WEEK from those dang coughers and sneezers.

I will put it this way--if you choose not to take the communion, that doesn't make you a bad Catholic, or unchristian. You are still there, at the mass, participating. The only time I took wine was at my first communion--I still don't take it--those communal glasses freak me out, and I don't want to end up with herpes or mono.

This is the way I look at it (and please don't be offended)--you can decline communion for any reason you choose. A parish wouldn't make an alcoholic or a diabetic drink the wine...so I think you can opt out of communion if you feel uncomfortable.

[lawyerchick]

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Swimr4 - There have been many posts on this topic before, just do a search for Communion or mass. But the short answer is that the carbs are negligible. An entire slice of bread (the good stuff, not "lite") has 14 carbs. A communion wafer is a tablespoon of flour and water and very little else. Participate in your faith and don't worry about it. If you're concerned about triggering cravings, eat a piece of cheese or pepperoni immediately after mass.

[swimr4]

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Sorry guys...I was being sarcastic/aka kidding....I am sure that God won't strike me dead for not going to communion and I am sure that eating a communion wafer won't send me running out of church into the 7-11. Sorry if you misunderstood. That said, I am going to find my children (it is scarey quiet in here) and get them and me ready for bed. Good night and God bless.

[HeidiE]

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Thank you so much ..all of you ..for your response

it is so wonderful to have this outlet ..always ...

first of all as far as cravings ..sometimes I cave ..if I do I do not punish or slam myself for screwing up ... never use the word cheat ... "evolving into a healthier person" is all not a perfect one..... God forbid

second I agree with the water thing it is amazing how much it can help ..

and third..I am only speaking from my standpoint with this one but it really works well for me

..talk to yourself ...loudly.....

my usual :

"If I eat this I will want more and if I eat more I will want more and more and more and it will never fking end .... my body does not see this as food because it is not really food ..food feeds you ..this just makes me mental ...so why on earth a tortilla or a cookie (whatever) going to defeat my resolve to look and feel good... am I hungry? because if I am hungry I need to stop what I am doing and make plate of food sit my asss down relax and eat it!!!"

I have actually screamed that at the top of my lungs all alone in my house!

we all have our demons ..sugar/white flour cause my body to freak the helll out...I am very grateful I have stuck to this plan my advice is hang in there eat lots of good healthy foods....(I ate sometimes 6 plates of food a day in the begining!) follow the steps of this program ..pay close attention to what your triggers are ...do not make the entire thing about being slim....this board is a great tool to help you but you are the only one doing this!!!!

thanks so much ...reading your words helps my resolve tonight

please keep talking here ....

[sallyseachange]

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Good one Heidi. Tks!

[asbeemer]

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Oh my God.....I think we are twins separated at birth.........I can relate toally to everything you are saying........thanks .....I don't feel so alone and abnormal.

[marcella]

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You have really hit the nail on the head with this one. And I didn't realize it until I read your post! Thanks, and I will be yelling at the top of my lungs "don't do it, don't do it, don't do it" the next time I'm alone in the house and tempted to have "just one" cheat!

[HeidiE]

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You guys are awesome there is no way I could do this alone ..so I am going to Atkins asss bump this up so a friend will notice ..endulge my narcissism here please ..because if I did not scream this shitt in the kitchen and fight with these stupid chemicals in my brain to avoid eating the crap that makes me fat...
I would not have a body like this at 48 years old just do not eat it ..and it can not control you ..that is what I am yelling at you my friend Love you!!!



I am not a weak minded person or a "cheater" when I eat crap ...I am still evolving!!! we all are!!!! forgive and move on ..next time resist more of what you know you cant eat


now if someone would please help me find the fortitude to exercise more and intentionally to get stronger and do all those things it is supposed to do ..I would be very grateful ..because that is where I suck!!! and I really do not want to be a decrepit old lady!!!

[ValidRouge]

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Hubba Hubba!

Smooches!

[HeidiE]

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make me excerise I suck!!!!

that *** will be gone if I don't do something!!!!!