Day of confessions

[goin2befit]

I guess today is my day to confess and to own up to my actions... I started Aktins I think officially on Dec 18th.... however, I cheated every single day. In the first 7 weeks I lost 21 pounds and that is cheating everyday... I would try to stay around 20 carbs but that would include a glass of milk, ect... sometimes I would go over b/c I would have a bag of candy, a thing of icecream, ect... but would have no other carbs for the day and no other carbs for most of the next day.. but after 7 weeks the weight kept fluctuating... up 4 down 2, up 2 down 5... so altogether from Dec 18th til now I have lost 31.4 pounds...

I realized I am loosing weight for other people and not just for myself. I am also abusing food to find comfort (especially the sweets and bread) when I am nervous, anxious, or upset (and this seems to be alot lately)... I have lied about food, hidden and binged on food, I have deceived those around me and I am truely sorry for them and most more importantly for myself.

Loosing weight has been the most emotional thing I have ever done in my life. From this day forward I will be the best person I can and follow the diet the way it was written i will keep my 14 day clean introduction, starting today... and I will report back in 14 days.

Now some of you may ask why I'm spilling my guts like this, it is simply b/c I know that there is other "lurkers" out there that has started and stopped 100 times and yet they still keep coming back b/c they believe in Atkins and they are ready to change but find themselves failing day after day.

For me I am able to commit to myself when I realized that God is watching me 24/7 and he knows if I am cheating or no, also when I realized no matter how bad someone else wants me to loose the weight or the consequenses of me not loosing the weight is so irrelevant, that the only one who will loose weight is ME... My choice that I make each and everyday.

Now the next thing is to replace those old habits of binging to find comfort to other ways to relax and comfort myself and I have decided to pray and meditate for 5 mins each time I feel this feeling... if this doesn't work then I will read something positive (a good book on remembering God, words of wisdom, ect) and I feel confident that this will calm me and will keep me back on track.

Thanks for giving me the time to share...
PS. My 14 day introduction start weight is 370.6

~Amanda

[MrsChesterDogg]

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Confession is good for the soul, or so I've heard. I think once you get through induction and see just how good you will feel it will be lots easier to stick to the program. Also, one of the biggest benefits, I've found, is that I've lost almost all of my craving for sweets. I find that I have a little bit of a craving when it's PMS time, but other than that I couldn't care less about sweets. Remember tho, that the more sweets you take in the more you will crave them. The same with all the other starchy carbs. Just make sure you eat plenty fat as this will help with the cravings also. You can do this. You have all of us here on the forum behind you.

[not2late]

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Good for you for committing yourself to a clean 14 Day Induction.

I would suggest that you move to OWL Phase on Day 15. See, plenty of people think that the entire Atkins Diet is Induction. I don't know where they got that idea because even in the 1972 book, Dr. Atkins discussed re-introducing carbs after the initial 1 week Induction (it was 1 week back then.) I can only presume that people stopped reading that book after the Induction section, just like many of them do today (if they even bothered to read the book in the first place.)

Also people think that they will only lose weight if they stay on Induction and/or eat at Induction level carbs. During my time on ADBB, there have only been 5 people who could never increase their net carbs above 20: they all had some kind of underlying medical condition that inhibited weight loss and/or were on medications that inhibited weight loss.

So move to OWL on Day 15---you'll enjoy the menu better which will enable you to stick to the Diet better. Plus, you'll continue losing weight and you will learn healthy eating habits.

[ldyj]

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Amanda, I so understand!

I had been doing everything Atkins for several months when I ran into an unexpected brick wall. We decided to go to KY for my husband's annual family reunion over Memorial Day. My youngest daughter set her wedding day in TX on the 27th of June. What to do! We attended the reunion, visited cousins in DC, visited friends in IL, back to TX for the now canceled wedding - well you get the picture, 6,000 miles of extended travel.

The first two weeks I may have fallen here and there, but always managed to pick myself right up and regain my determination. But then one day I fell face first into the carb pile, and I've pretty much stayed there.

I posted my confession to ADBB and got such wonderful support! But until today, when I read your post, I was still just lying there! Your post made me realize it was time to once again, pick myself up and get back on track!

To that end, I'm going to join you in doing a clean induction (I'll be a day behind, since for me today is over), hold you up and hold you responsible, and I know you'll do the same for me. Together, and with the help of the wonderful people on ADBB, we can reach our goals and make our dreams come true!

[chinadoll]

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Sometimes sayinjg things out loud (or on a message board) can be very cleansing. Hopefully this new start and commitment will keep you on track and losing. More importantly, the sense of you being in control and feeling really good about yourself will grow as the pounds shrink.

[goin2befit]

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Thanks for such lovely support. I'm so happy to report that I successfully stayed 100% committed yesterday, even through tiredness, an argument, and foods I would have normally taken a bit of.... and the scale rewarded me this morning weighing in 1.6 pounds less from yesterday!!!

Jeannette~ I would love to have you join aboard. Wishing you the best first day ever!

[Sherikie]

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Good for u!! When i read ur thread it sounded just like me in the last year...but im back on the wagon now 7 days in

[lilblackdress]

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That is exactly what I was going to do on the forum today is confess to that I started on Wednesday and haven't been true to the induction and last night really bad. So this is my confession and that I am going to commit to a 14 day clean induction. I weighed myself this morning and I am down over 4 pounds but I am not taking that as last nights bad choices probably haven't caught up with me. I had peanuts for supper (at movies). But then ulcer reminded me that it doesn't like peanuts.

Confessing is half the battle the other half is committment.

[goin2befit]

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O' so true lilblackdress.... I feel that so many of us do the same things... like what you said your down 4 pounds.. I mean honestly for so many weeks and months it was like I would see how many bites of this and that that I could take and still loose a pound or so... I must be the best cheater out there!

For me I am around food it seems all day, I'm a stay at home mom of a 3.5 and a 2 year old girls, so they eat all the time... this morning at breakfast I had picked up a little crumb of bread from the table and instantly put it in my mouth.. I said... hmm something doesn't taste like egg... and spit it out and saw what it was.. .I know gross, but better out then in my stomach.

They say food doesn't just accidentally end up in your mouth, but I believe to differ.. so many times I have that bit before I even realize it was there.

I'm so happy all of us are recommitting to ourselves!!!! Lets come here daily and post our confessions either good or not so good.. but lets promise to be true to ourselves at least!

[chillispice]

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They say food doesn't just accidentally end up in your mouth

...so there I was in Hotel Chocolat and found the Margerita Mini Cocktail Truffle in my mouth - and I didn't spit it out! It was a free sample, so it would have been churlish to refuse.

This was my first 'non-Atkins' food since I re-started induction in March so I decided to ignore it and just carry on as if it never happened.

[sensiblehector]

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Hey..........what can i say....you have said it for me.......i lie all the time....I'll have a double vodka and then nibble on a beef burger....

[ldyj]

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Oh, I so agree about the "mindless munchies" (and it doesn't even have to be potato chips!) When I was traveling, trying so hard to get back on track, we dined at a Mexican restaurant. I've eaten at Mexican restaurants many times and stayed on plan, think fajitas, but this time tamales came out of my mouth before I knew what I was saying - it was like it was my evil twin speaking or something! Did I shout out "wait, wait, I didn't mean it!!!" Heck no, and the tamales weren't any good either! (sigh!)

I'm in on the daily confessions. So far today I'm good - for the first time I'm actually measuring my veggies - and I've already consumed 40 oz of water. I generally shoot for 100, but it may take me a few days to reach that level again.

I'm so happy to be here with y'all!

[goin2befit]

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...This was my first 'non-Atkins' food since I re-started induction in March so I decided to ignore it and just carry on as if it never happened.

Great job just getting back on track and not thinking another minute about it!!

Jeanette~ How was your first day being 100% committed? Don't you just hate it when you waste it on something that you didn't get any pleasure from anyways!!... I just know that we can do this this time once and for all...

For me, I made it through 2 days no cheat and working on 3 days... and yes, I know I'm obsessed with the scale and for now it is still my BFF b/c I was 366 this am... yes, I seemed to have dropped 3 pounds over night. Now of course I know and understand that this is water weight, but hey, it is still a lost and reassurance that I need to know that I'm doing what I'm suppose to be doing!

Yay!!!

[Sherikie]

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I hear ya ladies...i jus keep thinking a moment on the lips a lifetime on the hips lol....day 8 cheat free for me. Im a slave to the scale too...aslong as seeing that i didnt lose or maybe flucuated up alitle doesnt make me want to quit its all good for me. I know this woe works so im stickin with it!!

[ldyj]

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First and second day, right on plan - still working on the water consumption, got to get up to snuff for the July water challenge!!

I'm scale obsessive, too! Heck, I even took mine when I went on my recent road trip! (can't believe I told that!!) Of course I quit getting as soon as I fell in the carb mud - I'm such a whish!!

Like you, Amanda, I appear to be down about 3 lbs today. I'm going to make Monday (why not, isn't that what we do!) my official day to post my weight. I also took my measurements and, when I compared them to my last measurements, really grieved! Falling into the carb mud doesn't impact just your weight!

I also need to work on the percentages. My fat ratios are high and my protein and carb ratios are low. I use SparkPeople, which I just adore, to track these things. I think I'll take a look at some of the suggested daily menus posted on ADBB and see what I can figure out.

Y'all eat healthy and keep posting!