Mid-Year Resolution Challenge

[womanpraised]

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Okay.. I am confused.

And while y'all are pm-ing each other and asking if that is REALLY news... let me explain.

I didnt post a menu here... youmean the one in my journal?

I KNOW we are supposed to check the new, weekly post for the challenge question and such... but I cant find it.

If I only eat 600 calories a day, and exercise for an hour... nevermind. Horrible dream I h ad last night. THat is what I get for doing figuring in bed!

And.. I swam an hour today.. real lap swimming, not just screwing around swimming. The last time, I could only go half an hour and I was dying. ANd I only bout killed myself inhaling water 3 times. YAY ME!

[Effie]

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Something about Friday nights... call it tradition, or stress relief, or I don't know what, but I'm ON A MISSION to eat something good (and by "good" I really mean "bad"). So, I'll have to work on that in the coming weeks.

Friday Night Update! I was given homework by Cleo to figure out why I still hang on to this Friday Night tradition. Well, I'm still not sure. The best I can come up with is just that it's a habit, and when I don't do it, I feel like there is something missing.

Buuuuut... I think I figured out a way around this. This morning, before I left for work, I threw together Boiled Dinner in the crockpot (corned beef, cabbage, onions, and carrots which I'm not allowed to eat yet). So, all day long, I knew what was for dinner. The pizza craving wasn't really even there. So I don't think it's a hunger craving for pizza, it's just a habitual craving. I didn't even miss it tonight, and not once today did I think, "Damn, I wish I didn't have boiled dinner waiting for me at home."

So, I guess I'll just keep on being prepared. (Crap, when I put it like that, it all seems so easy!)

[Elsie150]

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Womanpraised...I posted it in my email a couple above here but here it is again...

http://www.atkinsdietbulletinboard....ead.php?t=18204

[jsj0305]

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PLEASE HELP ME!!! I don't know why, but one again I have screwed up!!! My husbands uncle passed away and his wake was tuesday, and the funeral wednesday. Everyone went out to eat between the two services, and of course...I blew it! I figure, why not..there is so much more going on. Why do I invalidate my own struggles for someone elses?? I hate this so much!! I kept saying...i'll start back tomorrow, i'll be fine...I lied to myself..again. I am still not back to eating how I should. I see my results and am so proud, but I do not care enough to keep going. mean i lost like 10 pounds in less than a week!! Thats awesome results..but i don't care!! My husband acts as if he isn't attracted to me, no matter what i weigh, or look like, so why should I... Please help me guys. I know I should matter more to myself but i don't. On top of it all, my stupid freezer broke and ruined all of my meat.. i had like 200 bucks worth of meat in there!! That may not sound like a big deal, but I have almost no money as it is, so that money took me FOREVER to save up so i could start back up. I hate everything right now. Please help me guys... I need an angel
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[jsj0305]

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Okay Miss Cleo.. I got your pm, and I think answering infront of everyone might help..Who knows, maybe I'll embarrass myself to the point that I'll stick with this. 1. Why aren't you worthy of losing this weight?
I don't know. Probably the same reason that I'm not worthy of having a husband who supports and respects me. I mean I know I deserve to be happy, and I'll be happy once I loose this weight, but no one else cares, so why should I? I feel like I've lost my "inner self" as Oprah would say. In the beginning I didn't care what anyone thought..I was gonna look good..I was gonna make myself proud, reguardless of what anyone else thought. Now, I feel trapped. I'm almost 20, I have a son, I'm married and I live w/ my mother-in-law. My marrage shouldn't even be called that. It's a pity party. I want out, but have no place to go. I have no job, b/c I take care of my son b/c of daycare prices. I could never leave without my son, never in a million years, and I have no place to go with him. I am trapped. My husband got high for more than half of my pregnancy, and left me to deal with ALL of the complications by myself. I still cannot forgive him for that. I don't know if me staying fat is my way of punishing him...I just don't know anymore. I need a shrink. I know how wrong I sound..but it's how I honestly feel.

2. What is the weight doing for you that you are trying so hard to hold onto it? Absolutely nothing! I guess we've been through so much together.....

You are sabotaging yourself, but there is a reason for it. What is that reason? I wish I knew. The only thing I can think of is b/c I have so much on my mind, that food seems so insignificant. I want to leave my husband, but I cannot provide a home for my son by myself, I want to get a job, but have no one to take care of my son. I have NO family to rely on. None. My mother and father are so wrapped up in therie own "habits" to give a you know what about me or my son. I have no where to turn, again. It's been like this my whole life. That's probably why I ran to the first man who showed any interest in me, and I have a son at 19. I feel like I have raised myself and I have nothing else to teach myself. I need help with this one. Better yet, I need a Mom.

Let's have some dialogue.

I know you're struggling. Let's talk about what's eating you.
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[wannabethintoo]

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Okay Miss Cleo.. I got your pm, and I think answering infront of everyone might help..Who knows, maybe I'll embarrass myself to the point that I'll stick with this. 1. Why aren't you worthy of losing this weight?
I don't know. Probably the same reason that I'm not worthy of having a husband who supports and respects me. I mean I know I deserve to be happy, and I'll be happy once I loose this weight, but no one else cares, so why should I? I feel like I've lost my "inner self" as Oprah would say. In the beginning I didn't care what anyone thought..I was gonna look good..I was gonna make myself proud, reguardless of what anyone else thought. Now, I feel trapped. I'm almost 20, I have a son, I'm married and I live w/ my mother-in-law. My marrage shouldn't even be called that. It's a pity party. I want out, but have no place to go. I have no job, b/c I take care of my son b/c of daycare prices. I could never leave without my son, never in a million years, and I have no place to go with him. I am trapped. My husband got high for more than half of my pregnancy, and left me to deal with ALL of the complications by myself. I still cannot forgive him for that. I don't know if me staying fat is my way of punishing him...I just don't know anymore. I need a shrink. I know how wrong I sound..but it's how I honestly feel.

2. What is the weight doing for you that you are trying so hard to hold onto it? Absolutely nothing! I guess we've been through so much together.....

You are sabotaging yourself, but there is a reason for it. What is that reason? I wish I knew. The only thing I can think of is b/c I have so much on my mind, that food seems so insignificant. I want to leave my husband, but I cannot provide a home for my son by myself, I want to get a job, but have no one to take care of my son. I have NO family to rely on. None. My mother and father are so wrapped up in therie own "habits" to give a you know what about me or my son. I have no where to turn, again. It's been like this my whole life. That's probably why I ran to the first man who showed any interest in me, and I have a son at 19. I feel like I have raised myself and I have nothing else to teach myself. I need help with this one. Better yet, I need a Mom.

Let's have some dialogue.

I know you're struggling. Let's talk about what's eating you.
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Life can be rough without the unconditional love of a mother. I understand that. My parents got divorced when I was 10 and we moved in with my grandparents. Even though my mother was there with us, my grandmother was the one who raised us. She made us (myself and my 2 sisters) feel like we were second class citizens. They had money so they would eat really good food and we would eat baloney and hot dogs. We were told that children were meant to be seen and not heard. When the other grandchildren came for a visit, they were showered with love and gifts...not us. I barely remember my mother being there with us 'cause she never interferred with her mother.

These kinds of experiences will either break you or make you stronger. Sadly, the experience broke my older sister's spirit. She had a nervous breakdown and never recovered from it. For me, the experience made me a very strong person. I put all of my efforts into my school work so that I could become independent and not have to rely on anyone.

We always have a choice in deciding how life's experiences will shape our future....no matter what the circumstances are. Don't ever forget that. Although things may look bleek right now, don't forget that your circumstances can change at a moment's notice. Stay strong and never give up.

[cleochatra]

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Sorry for getting a little behind!

Waitaminute! I WANT a little behind!

BBIAM

[wannabethintoo]

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Can someone revise my entry.

wannabthintoo 219/212/167 45 pounds to go until New Years!

Since I bought a new scale and there was a difference of 7 lbs, I increased my start weight by 7, my current weight by 7 and my goal weight by 7. I still have 45 lbs to go until New Years though.

[cleochatra]

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That's a good idea, wannabe! Elsie should get right on this. If not, I'll do it!

[wannabethintoo]

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That's a good idea, wannabe! Elsie should get right on this. If not, I'll do it!

Yeah it's a good idea...I don't like it but it's a good idea.

[cleochatra]

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wanna-- I wouldn't like it, either! I understand what you're saying.

[Elsie150]

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It is done. You will find the most updated version here http://www.atkinsdietbulletinboard.c...566#post202566

Cleo...would it be possible for you to put the new thread link in this thread each Sunday after you post your questions?? That way none of us have an excuse for forgetting or not being able to find it. Thanks!!

[Elsie150]

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Wanna..just remember you still lost 40 pounds regardless of what the start number said. You still did all that work and had all that success!!!

[wannabethintoo]

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Wanna..just remember you still lost 40 pounds regardless of what the start number said. You still did all that work and had all that success!!!

Yeah I know but I thought I was only 5 pounds to onederland but I'm really 12.

[Elsie150]

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Yeah..that does suck! Sorry!