~~~Winter Onederland Challenge (FEB)~~~

[MsChrissy]

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Hey girls, Yup the mall is a tough place for me as well.........well any public place is tough for me. I obcess about my weight and in my mind I feel like I'm getting bigger and bigger and everyone is staring at me wondering why this fat chick is here (forgetting eating in those places) geesh I even feel horrible buying food at the market (the whole time at checkout I think they are critiquing my order). So I don't do well in public places, I know it's all mental........this fat has enslaved my mind for sure.

I'm doing well made it through superbowl weekend (well it was easy cause I don't dig sports so no partying over here). I am down to 180.2 (wooo hooo thats a 4 lb. loss in one week) I'm not claiming it yet cause I tend to rock back and forth for a day or two. But is was heaven to step on the scale this morning and see that 180 mark.

I hope everyone is doing well.....
Chrissy

[loser4life]

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wow chrissy- 180! You totally rock- I am getting so scared about summer- its my fav time of year and I wanna look better than ever this summer! That is why I am soooo buckling down!!!! I had no time whatsoever to pack lunch today so I ate beef steak and cheese from agas station- no dinner yet, not sure what I will have- I'll try to check in later!!! where is everyone?

[Mary-chan]

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Wow Chrissy - WAY TO GO!!! That is so cool!!!!

Okay big confession time, yesterday I totally screwed up and cheated and binged!! However I'm not that upset about it. It is the FIRST time I cheated in over 9 months.. and with the wedding coming up so soon I have REALLY been pushing myslf to to the edge of my limits!! Way too much!! So yesterday I was at work, and I forgot to bring a snack for the second half of the day like I usually do and I was sitting there thinking how hungry I would be.. and I think it triggered a starvation-response mode in my mind, and all of a sudden i wanted everything and anything!!
I ate and ate and ate!! It was the first time in 9 months I actually ate non-atkins food during a binge.. though I do give myself credit, instead of going to mcdonalds or something, I went and got fruit and some banana chips and peanuts.. the fruit was the most heavenly thing ever, I have been craving it so bad lately.. I also had some "low-carb" cereal with milk.. so it wasn't anything atrocious, but the AMOUNT that I ate was, I mean I was completely out of control and I admit it.. Okay, I had 2 bite-size nestle crunch's and 2 fun-size snickers (you know the kind that are gone in one bitees?) <-- but the thing about that is, they made me feel sick and I didn't want anymore, that's when I started craving the fruit!!

But anyway I decided to call in sick today and get myself under control. Okay, so far so good, right back on the wagon today, I promise!!

The important thing about it is that I realized I can't be pushing myself as hard as I was anymore, if I feel myself nearing the breaking point I am going to allow myself some fruit or nuts. Being on extended induction for 9.5 straight months can be a little too much I guess!!

And another thing, I am going to stay away from the scale for a good while (especially this week - I don't want to see how badly I did yesterday!). I am going to focus on exercising, eating right, and pay attention to the fit of my clothes. I'll know if I'm doing good or not, I don't need to worry about the number.

So that is my confession, I finally cheated after 9.5 months of staying on the wagon.
Another thing about it is though, I'm kind of glad I did it. It will be enough for me for a while. It has taught me a few lessons. I have come too far to give up though, but it has made me want to step back and re-evaluate things.

Thanks for listening to me babble. Any help or advice is appreciated -I really don't want this to be the beginning of the end or something. I need to stay on this wagon!!

[loser4life]

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whoa MAry! lol... It happens to the best of us and like you said you learned from it. I am doing good, although I want some peanut butter really badly!!!! I don't know why- I just do! I think I will go have alittle snack because I feel I cuold eat a horse today!!!!!

[Mary-chan]

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Okay I stayed on track today.. had tuna with swiss cheese for lunch and a chicken salad with home-made dressing for dinner. Not too bad. And I jogged on the treadmill for 32 minutes. Am feeling much more in control today! I think I am going to focus on maintaining my current weight for a while before going back to worrying about the scale dropping. In fact, I still think I am going to stay away from the scale for a while.

The weather here has been so gorgeous here lately - it feels like summer time, I love it!! It is making me want to quit my job so i can actually enjoy the sunlight though lol.

[loser4life]

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haha summer time! It is snowing here! I was good today, decided I need to start controling myself more in the way of portions and whatnot. I need to learn when I am full or satisfied, not to just eat it because its there... I did well today, I went to the gym, had egg ham and cheese omlet for breakfast, lunch was leftover roast with peprocini(sp) and snack was hot dog and a couple slices pepperoni. I think I will have tacos for dinner minus the taco of course

[MsChrissy]

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Hey girls.......
Mary- Glad you are not being so hard on yourself because of your slip up.........geesh we are only human and do the best we can. I think you are doing fab. and I'm sure you already know how great you are doing. Yup, just take it as a learning experience and move on. Glad you are on track again.........way to go!!!!

Rikki- Wow snow......yuck (crossing fingers and toes) We have had a very mild winter in New England hope it stays this way. Gives me spring fever for sure! We are all gonna look so cute this summer in our bathing suits........wooo hooo can't wait!

Things are doing ok here......I guess I could up my water abit more. My exercise has been well. My eating has been good but I have been having alot of coffee (dark with no sugar) and I think it might be messing with me. At the beginning of the week I was 180 well today I am 183.4 (I've been eating extremely clean except for coffee???????) I did start working my crunches and core ball and weights harder this week so maybe it's that........I don't know. Well even though the scale is up abit I'm looking better and feeling better. Uggggggg I just have to wean myself off this damn coffee.

Oh Rikki-YUP YUP YUP I was reading your craving post about peanut butter........that is something I am sooooooo craving. Funny too cause I was never a big peanut butter eater before atkins but OMG when I make hubbies toast in morning I want to crawl in the jar. I purposly put a papertowel next to knife to wipe it off so I don't go for a lick. Another craving I'm having (a very bad one) is pancakes with butter and syrup........I keep thinking I'll have it when I do on vacation......that is a dangerous thought for me.

Well glad to see you both are back on track......have a great day!

[loser4life]

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Hiya girlies, ok confession time- I have been drinking way too much wine..... ok, now having that said...I am going to stop drinking when I am at home and only drink it when we go out with friends, and then I will have a glass of water between every drink. I think that could work... don't get me wrong, I don't drink all the time however, I think that may just be my major stalling factor and I am sooooooo ready to lose the weight that I am gonna have to give it up... ok- I am going to lunch witha friends today because I got a snow day then I am gonna go hang out with another friend and then I am going to work at the shop- I wonder where we'll eat lunch.... I am hungry, I better have a snack before so I don't go wild when I get there!!!! check in with yall later!

[MsChrissy]

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Hey........
Rikki- I hope you are able to stay away from the wine at home. I drink once a month or every few months .......I get nervous because I think it's gonna stall me. Trust me, as I'm sitting in my hot tub at night with hubby.......I say to him "Boy I could go for a nice glass of wine or a cocktail" but I don't cause my eye is on the prize right now. It's tough not to have a glass here and there. As far as the plan to have a water inbetween thats a great idea.......I'm gonna use that next time I go out.

Mary- hope things are well for you!

Me: staying on plan and really trying to stay away from cheese and too much fats in my food.could be drinking more water but get in at least 80oz-120oz a day. Today I was able to jog for 25 minutes (5 minute increments) although I really think I need to get a couple sports bras cause my bras are rubbing and it looks like someone burned me with cigarettes from the friction. Suppose to have big storm this weekend so I doubt I will get out much (except for my food shopping). My weight seems to have stopped but I do feel toner and looking better so it's definitely shifting. I'll keep plugging along.......

Have a great weekend ladies!!!

[loser4life]

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You are doing great Chrissy- we were supposed to go out tonight with some friends, so I don't know if we will because it is supposed to snow 3-5 inches tonight. I think even if we don't go out with them we will do get dinner and hang out for a little while. I had the most stressful day today and I am ready to relax! I don't want to go to work in the morning so I hope it snows a freakin foot! No not really, I need to make some money however, it would be nice to just relax for the whole weekend...

[loser4life]

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Hi guys! I am not doing so well.... I am eating like a freakin hog! I can't control myself!!! what the heck is wrong with me??!!!!! And you know whats worse... I want a spicy chicken sandwich and fries- I haven't eaten on in so long and I would love to have one!!! I am driving myself nuts-.....................


I am on this diet to get control of my eating habits- this shouldn't be how I am!!!! I should be able to tell myself not to eat things like that and let it go! what is my deal???

[loser4life]

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OKie dokie guys--- a new me! thats what you are going to see... I haven't lost any weight in like a month and that has to change! I had quit using fitday and been slackin int he exercise departmetn and with taking supplements... well... fitday here I come. I am a user for sure starting today!!!!!!!!

so, revised mid month goals for me are.....
FITDAY
EXERCISE at least 4x per week.
water- been fairly good about this one... at least 100oz per day
supplements... I need to go buy soem more of these
Keep my percentages where they ned to be and eat 1500 cal per day, however, I won't beat myself up if I occasionally go over!!!


I am going to do this like this for a while, I am goign to give it a fair chance and I should lose the weight if I keep it up, however, If I do keep it up and don't lose, I am reevaluating this plan for me at least for a while...because I have been thinking of doing ww again, but decided I need to do this right first because it has worked for me in the past and I think it can work for me now.I think I just have let my portions get outta control!!! time to control myself! I am going to do this I am going to lose the weight!!!!!


BTW- snow everywhere here.. everyone cross your fingers I won't have school tomorrow!!!!!! Yeah, that would be nice!!!!!

[MsChrissy]

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Uggggggggg Rikki it must be the moon........Yesterday I was totally off the wall. I ate whole bag of pork rinds and a ton of cream cheese....I dont even want to think of the calories I consumed yesterday. I am so disappointed in myself.........what do I do I wake up and been the same way today.

I am doing it very very very strict tomorrow.Totally lean meats and eggs and water only, thats it for next three days ........cause I think I have knocked myself out of ketosis. It's like I have hungry horrors and I hate it!

Well gotta get my butt on the treadmill..........grrrrr been saying thatall morning. All them calories is making me lazy.

[loser4life]

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I think you shouldeat some veggies too though Ms Chrissy.... those definitely don't add a lot to teh calorie count... Just watch teh carb count... I am going grocery shopping in a bit and I am going to get soem good induction friendly stuff...

Mary- how are you doing?

[Mary-chan]

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Rikki; I know how you feel exactly!!! After I cheated on monday, I did okay on tuesday, but then went crazy on eating nuts (of all things!) on wednesday... so then I figured I must be out of ketosis and went back to eating nothing but induction foods... but I binged and binged on induction foods! I finally stopped binging yesterday and am feeling slightly better and more in control, but I think binging is one of those things that I will always have to be cautious about, it is so easy for me to just become out of control when I eat for some reason!!

I'm thinking what really happened was I was eating so FEW calories for a while that my body just rebelled and went into starvation mode and the "FEED ME" mechanism stayed in the on position for a while.. either way, binging is something I really have to watch out for for now on..

So I gained about 3 pounds, I'm not going to beat myself up about it.. I am going to work hard to get back to where I was, but I am not going to kill myself to get there.. even if it takes me two months to get there, I'd rather stay in control and not give myself an eating disorder or something!!

So my new focus will be eating healthy portions and concentrating on exercising more.

I quit my job last week too, so hopefullly that means I will have more time and energy for exercising!

So no more depriving myself and no more binging!! Health is more important then appearance!!!

I hope things are going well for you guys!! It's hard to imagine it snowing over there.. it was 85 degrees here today, such beautiful weather.. so glad I quit my job so I can actually enjoy this weather now lol!

Take care everyone!