It got the best of me (PART II)

[barrnone]

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I'm definitely going to go get myself some new Wii games - these all sound good! I already got myself a mothers day present; but I think I deserve more

[Jules1980]

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You do!!!
What did ya get yourself barrnone?

[2BME]

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I was thinking about getting myself a coffee maker for mother's day. My current maker is gasping out it's last.

[Aprile]

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I'm not sure what I want for Mother's Day. My son has a full time job for the first time in years so he had better get me something good. (kidding or am I?)

I am not getting to far with the house cleaning. Everytime I get up and try I get a pain in my arm and shoulder. It freaks me right out as it is the left side so I sit down and rest everytime it does it. I used to have a housekeeper come in and clean. I let her go last year when I was home all the time and couldn't justify spending the money when I was home to do it. Now I am thinking maybe I should call and have her come back until I get on my feet again. Oh maybe that would be a good mothers day gift.

[barrnone]

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You do!!!
What did ya get yourself barrnone?

I've always wanted a mothers day ring - and just ran across these the other day

Mothers Day Gift / PURCHASE ANY 5 CUBIC by AddictionToDetail

I'm getting 2 - one for june and one for december.

I'm so excited. I don't wear much jewelry - basically just my wedding rings, but I thought these were really fun!

My kids aren't all that thoughtful - love 'em dearly - but they are just broke/busy students this time of year. My hub and I usually just go buy plants/flowers and do our planting together - which is fun.

but I really wanted these rings

[Jules1980]

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Yes those rings are beautiful I have one from my sons father. Its got my son, his and my birth stone! Very nice!
Aprile,
I would seriously take a rest! I work in the health industry and a pain in the shoulder and arm is not a good sign! I would get someone in there to do the heavy stuff! Just until you start to feel better and get things sorted out!
Its not a failure on your part if you take it easy!!!!! Just please take it easy!!!
Steady as she goes! Get it? got it? good! Lol

[Jules1980]

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Oh and barrnone....lucky for me my son was born in april...he's got a DIAMOND! lol its in the center of my ring! lol (Mind you I don't wear it....when the ex and I split I threw it at him in fury and never got it back!) lmao STUPID ME!! haha

[Aprile]

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Yeah I know, sigh. I am having mental battles. First is if I can get up and do something I can convince myself there is nothing wrong. When I do get up and do something and I hurt I get frustrated and have to deal with the fact that maybe there is something wrong.

About the time I convince myself they don't know what they are talking about. I start getting that pain in my chest that speads to my shoulder and down the inside of my left arm on activity. It makes me mad and also think ok, ok you win. I hate when my husband comes home and nothing is done. I feel like I am lazy. I feel fine sitting on the couch playing on the computer but man get up and start wiping down something and wham it gets me.

[Jules1980]

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Jeesh! I know what ya mean on the lazy part...but you have a reason for it! Would you rather end up in the hospital for a month? Or...take it easy, let him and someone else do the heavy stuff and you just lay low for a while! Trust me, I had a patient who was having similar issues, and her shoulders started to really hurt! Well we told her to settle down and not over exert herself..she did and than landed herself in the hospital...3 months to recover! Listen to your body...not your brain! Sounds stupid, but you will benefit from it in the end

[Aprile]

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I know..... part of the problem is if I don't do it, it doesn't get done. As I have said before I am OCD. My husband while he will help some by folding or doing laundry does not do anything else. Other people around the house are content to live in clutter and dirt, I can't. I get so ashamed if someone comes over and the house isn't clean.

I am stubborn to and I know it. Sometimes I will be having chest pains and it must be pretty obvious to my husband who asks me "what's wrong?" Im like nothing. He will tell me your not a good liar. lol. I will continue to tell him nope nothing is wrong as I want to crawl in a ball and die lol. I just can't admit to myself that something is wrong. I keep trying to mind over matter it though deep down inside I do know something is wrong. If that makes sense. I still hold out hope that I will go Wednesday and this new doctor will say nothing wrong go home. Then I am afraid if that happens I have sat on my a** and done nothing while nothing was wrong. How is that for screwed up thinking?

[Jules1980]

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Completely Normal!!! Your in the stages of "Thought". I would say that right now you are in denial! Listen to the doc and just keep it slow until the rest in tact!
As for the cleaning....do little bits at a time if you must...just go easy

[Aprile]

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Yeah denial is def where I want to be

It wouldn't be so bad if things hadn't went all wrong with my procedure last year. When they went in they ended up aborting after 4 hours. I went into Afib with a rate of 600 on the table. They tried to chemically convert me and that didn't work. I had to have cardioversion (defib) 4xs to bring me out. I had second degree burns on my chest and back from the defib. It took me 3 months to recover somewhat. I felt like I had the crap beat out of me. It would literally take me 20 mins to shuffle my feet to the kitchen which is maybe 20 feet from where I sit in the livingroom. And then once I got there I knew I had to walk the 20 mins back lol.While this procedure is different it is somewhat similar and I have that fear of a repeat performance. They can't promise it wont happen again. I feel like I used up my luck last time so if it happens again or something worse happens I wont be so lucky. I just keep hoping it will all go away. Damn I am still (somewhat) young.

[Jules1980]

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Well I sympathize with ya Girly!! Just keep your head up and try to stay positive I know that's easier said than done though! How old r ya? I know I went through alot of problems from age 25 and than finally ended up having my hysterectomy at age 26. That was tough but try and stay as positive as you can your tough I can tell
Jules

[Aprile]

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I am 38. I had my hysterectomy at 22, so been there done that too. I have heart problems since I was in my mid 20s. They weren't bad, they seem to have progressed in the past 2 years.

[Jules1980]

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That sucks! Its sounds like you've been through alot!!
Well just keep pluggin away! Im sure things will start to look up for you