Re: ICES REVISITED (NO EXCUSES) All or Nothing!!!
I read that sentance and started to cry. I actually think that. It just feels like this time I finally make everyone believe that I was going to do it (family) and i was doing great. Then they started noticing that it really WAS happeneing and started giving me compliments, thats when i started to crumble. I was thinkin last night that i've been with Chris for almost 4 years now, and we've lived together for about 2.5. When we started dating I was wearing all these cute clothes and always looked nice and all that. Not only have I stopped doing myself all up (because we've been together so long) but I stopped caring about what I look like around him. I let myself get huge. Its alright for him to eat all this junk food because he's a guy and it doesnt fase him in the least. He's trim and buff and perfect. and here I am. Starting at 260 pounds. Thats almost 300lbs! How disgusting. I think I bring this up alot but I was so popular and so outgoing before. Now it scares me to go anywhere because I know im bound to see someone that I know and have them look at me like HOLY SH&T!!!! Because the way I have transformed myself is seriously unbelievable. In the pic in my siggy I was around 180-190, but thats the most recent size of myself that I think i look half way decent. Most of my life I was 155-165ish. I could walk around on the beach in my bikini and not care, and know that I looked good. But now you wont even catch me in shorts and a tank top.
Sorry for ranting, I do this everytime I get upset. Its useless to talk about the way things used to be. If I want to have all those feelings again that I have to do something about it. No excuses. I cant sit here and wine and expect the fat to fall off. It doesnt happen that way.
Im sorry for once again, being the one to mess up. I will put the cheat-free thingy in my siggy
and hop back on today. I need to step it up. BIG TIME!
Thanks everyone for the help.
*Krystle
Originally posted by iyamamaschke
Sorry for ranting, I do this everytime I get upset. Its useless to talk about the way things used to be. If I want to have all those feelings again that I have to do something about it. No excuses. I cant sit here and wine and expect the fat to fall off. It doesnt happen that way.
Im sorry for once again, being the one to mess up. I will put the cheat-free thingy in my siggy
and hop back on today. I need to step it up. BIG TIME!Thanks everyone for the help.
*Krystle



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